Gosh, I just realized it has been almost a week since I have updated and I know some of you are getting worried! No seriously, we are good, I have honestly needed a few days of getting back to our routine and to decompress. Having a minute of downtime has been really good for me and my sanity. I have had time to make new goals, read new books, listen to podcasts, and take care of business stuff that I have been putting off. I still need to spend like an entire day organizing and filing things in the office, but I will get there. I have focused way more on Chloe’s health and I need to find a balance with all of this.
This past week I have really worked on cooking more stuff from scratch. We have made our own barbecue sauce, ranch dressing, another round of bone broth, and I have been meal prepping like a mad woman.
I had a little extra dough, so I got on Amazon and ordered some new things. Stainless steel mixing bowls, glass bottles with lids for the kids to drink from, stainless steel utensils, a new wok, and new dishes to name a few. After I replaced all of my plastic dishes with stainless steel and glass, I went to cutting boards, soaps, detergents, carpet cleaners, water bottles, and anything else that I have researched that creates cancer and toxic environments. I know my kids are going to break things like crazy because my house is like 80% tile, but that’s okay. I will learn to get over it. Broken glass is better than chemo!
I am sure some of you are thinking I have lost my mind, but once your body develops an autoimmune disease, your chances to develop another autoimmune disease or even cancer greatly increase. My daughter isn’t even 3 and now I have to change everything to help her. I am okay with that. I have put in the time and research and want to do whatever I can to be the best mom to her.
Darren got home from work early yesterday so I took advantage of some alone time and went to Sprouts, the bank, and then Walmart. While I was at Walmart I had the most eye opening experience of my life. I walked around that place with a new set of eyes. I was 100% disgusted. I had the hardest time trying to find anything organic or healthy.
I was in the deodorant aisle trying to pick a new one for Darren (I personally buy the weird hippie shit, he will be there soon enough.) Anyways, I overheard a lady in distress while looking for a shampoo. She says “What do I even look for?! My kid is allergic to everything.” At this point, I felt obligated to stop and talk to her. I told her my kid was allergic to everything too and what could I do to help. She told me that she just left the doctor’s office and found out her daughter was allergic to all perfumes and she was trying to find a shampoo without perfume…..at Walmart. Yikes. So I sat there with this random lady at Walmart and read labels with her. She was so stressed, I wanted to hug her. I know how hard that day is. I cried the whole way home from the doctor when I found out Chloe’s diagnosis. We were discouraged to find only ONE brand that was non-toxic, no dye, and no perfume. I handed it to her and told her to try this one. It was in a clear bottle, nothing fancy on the label, and a clear liquid. She looked at me kind of funny and said “THIS ONE?! It has no color.” Ummm….well yeah! It’s not bright green and fun, but its not full of toxic shit like the rest of them! She gladly accepted the shampoo and we parted ways. It honestly made my day to be able to help someone else going through a tough time. I guess it was my way of paying it forward from all the amazing people who have helped me.
So, then I headed to the produce hoping to find some apples because Sprouts didn’t have the type my family likes. This section was a joke. There are so many beautifully bright fruits and veggies, but I had the hardest time finding one single bag of organic apples. Plus the organic apples looked like shit. Small, wrinkly, and just not appealing at all. This is why this trip was so eye opening to me. Everything bright and colorful was bad for you! Everything appealing to your eye is made to do so. Consumers are buying into what the companies want and it’s frightening. I left Walmart with like 6 things. I can not buy hardly anything there anymore.
Darren has been so amazing throughout all of this madness. He came home from work the other day to me and garbage bags full of plastic. He didn’t say much, but just kindly asked wtf I was doing…then I had to explain to him why plastic was bad and why I was getting rid of it all. He shrugged his shoulders and started helping. This is one of the million reasons I love this man so much. He just shrugs his shoulders and deals with my crazy antics. Last night I told him that I ordered lead paint tests to test the levels in our home. Our house was built in 1971 when they still used lead paint and I have read the symptoms of lead exposure….which are pain in abdomen and joints, pail skin, constipation, learning disability or slow growth, fatigue, loss of appetite, etc. All of these symptoms brought concern to me even though I know her health is improving. So, I will do the lead tests and see what that brings up. I am a bit nervous. I can only imagine what I will discover.
Every day is a new battle, every day is a new lesson, but every day I am taking it as a learning opportunity to develop strength and wisdom about health. Thank you for coming along for the ride!