Bye Felicia!

So when we started this journey, it was completely for Chloe. Everyone in my family was not going to make this change. Then, once we realized how damn hard this is, there was no way around us making changes too. I bit the bullet and jumped in first. I knew Chloe needed my support. Plus, it is not like this is BAD for any of us!!!

So here we are, Day 22 and we all have had significant health changes. All for the better! Ask anyone who has seen my family. Chloe is basically a different child, Connor has calmed down with a better attitude, and Darren is the healthiest I have ever seen him. His diet and habits have changed entirely since we met and that makes me a happy wife. He even said last night that he feels younger than he did when he was 22. This man used to smoke 2 packs a day and drink a pot of coffee or Monster drinks to survive. Now, none of that crap exists in my house. We have coffee and it hasn’t been made in 5 days now? I tried to drink 2 cups of green tea the other day and felt like I did cocaine. It was hell.

Then there is me.

My difference is the most noticeable. I have lost so many inches and pounds that clothes that I wished fit 2 months ago are falling off of me. I have worked out ONCE. Yep! Once. I am too damn busy cooking, cleaning, running a business, chasing 2 kids around and so much more to find time to workout. This usually would make me feel so guilty. I had been working out 4-5 times a week for most of the year, but no guilt now. I am as active as I always have been, but the body changes I did not expect to be so drastic. I now understand why you are supposed to do Paleo and Whole 30 for a month, after 30 days you don’t want to go back. I am a different person!!

My red, blotchy skin is completely gone. My inflammation is so much better. The weight loss, HELLO! My sinus pressure that has bothered me for YEARS is gone. Seriously, I would have to use essential oils and neti pots weekly. I have lived on Advil Cold & Sinus, Flonase, and Mucinex D for far too long. I average about 3 sinus infections a year to the point hard core antibiotics don’t work for me anymore. THAT PRESSURE AND PAIN IS GONE!!!!! I will let you know once Monsoon season hits and if I get my 1,239th sinus infection.

Now, let’s talk about my anxiety. That crazy, little bitch I call Felicia.

Biggest change!!! I have struggled with anxiety and depression my entire life to the point of medication. I remember getting told as a kid that I needed to relax or I would have an ulcer by 18! Well, I have had many ulcers. Dammit. I have been diagnosed with pancreatitis at 22, had ulcers, been medicated for anxiety, post partum depression and so on. A month ago, I would have never shared this with anyone. I was not strong enough to say that I struggle. I don’t like admitting I ever need help, especially with that fucking Felicia bitch. So, the middle of May my anxiety was at its all time worse. I had 2 panic attacks in May. I have had 5 my entire life. They were bad. Before this post, only 4 people knew about this. Life was so hard at this time that I didn’t know if I could make it through. I was struggling so bad before I had answers for Chloe, that I didn’t know if I was strong enough to be there for her. I am so thankful for the people in my life watching me struggle and were there to help. I had multiple blessings from my Father in law and Chloe did too. I reached a point of no return when I finally said I can’t do this anymore. I broke. It brought me to my knees and I had the most powerful prayer of my life. I picked myself back up and knew we could make another day.

The next week, we found the doctor that changed our lives. This was so scary, but I had already come to terms that this might be a gluten problem. I just didn’t want to accept it. Now, I can tell you how amazing this has been for us. Now, I can say that this is the best thing I have ever done for myself and my family. My anxiety is gone. Even through all the hell I am going through, I know I can hang. WITHOUT MEDICATION! I always hated the way anxiety/depression pills made me feel and I made sure to wean myself off as soon as I could. They make me dizzy, nauseous, and very upset guts. Why do we always take a pill instead of fixing the problem? Why do these damn pills take weeks and months to get off of? They are horrible and anything else you may take with them can cause serious reactions! YUCK!!! So, I can honestly and happily say that my anxiety was rooted from my diet. 100% I no longer pace my house late at night worrying about so much stupid shit I can’t control. I am sleeping better and no more racing heart. No more hormonal night sweats. Actually, hardly any sweating at all. That is cool. Especially since it hit 120 degrees in Phoenix yesterday.

I started writing this in hopes to help someone who wants to do this or has the tools and just lacks the ambition. I get it. No one gets it better than me. But this has been the best change for my entire family. I can honestly say that. I have never had this level of peace and grounding that I do right now. I can look at all of these changes and know that they root from diet alone. I have read articles stating this for years, but why would I listen to doctors or science?? Silly Torrie…


One thought on “Bye Felicia!

  1. I love everything about this post! I am so happy your inner strength is able to show on the outside! No more guilt or shame! I am so proud of you!


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